Why do I feel differnt?

I dont understand. I feel differnt but I feel like a human. Why is it that they don't like hanging out with me? I feel kinda lost and confused and alone. when ever I do something in front of people. everyone looks at my like I'm a freak when they were just doing it themselves.Can someone help me out?

Kiari
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Well I can say that you are not on your own with problems like that Kiari.
Awakening is rather a lot like going into your teens and puberty except thatjust about all the changes in awakening are on the inside, You generally feel different because you are starting to remember what you are but feel torn between what you are and wanting to hold on to what you know already, and then there is all the associated wierdness to do with being each type of Kin (what you are will mark a lot of what kinds of problems you have while awakening)..
You are however on the right track already

....well done...We can help.
You are not a freak but you are likely to be very different to the other people at school or college.
You will also find that they look at you like that because they really don't understand you, so try not to judge yourself by their standards. To be honest they are never likely to get you if you know what I mean. Don't take it to heart and try to let it wash over you without getting too far in.

Do have a look at the other members posts I think you'll find that a lot of them know exactly where you are coming from.
Don't be afraid to post any problems you have here, I am sure that someone will be able to help.
We are a friendly lot and really do know what you are going through right now.
By the way ..It does get easier.

Zygo

Welcome to the site Kiari.

It's lovely to meet you.
I am so sorry to hear you feel this way. It is always tough tryng to fit in.
This was written for me by a very close friend of mine. I hope that reading it helps you feel not so alone anymore.

QUOTE (Velvet Darkness)

I have always made people feel uncomfortable too. They smile (but it never quite reaches their eyes) and back away slowly as if I was a grizzly bear they came across whilst walking in the woods, or a rattle snake they disturbed by moving a rock.
They stop talking when I walk up and don't continue until I move away.
Sometimes I say something and they look up as if wondering where the noise came from!
I am not a danger to them, I have never been aggressive, rude or mean. It isn't that they don't like me because they never get to know me well enough for that.
It is simply that they seem to be able to sense something in me that they don't have and don't understand, and reverting to true type, what they do not understand they fear.
It used to upset me, as it was quite distressing when I was young and didn't know that for me as otherkin this would often be the way if things, but now it doesn't bother me like that any more. If anything it makes me feel secure, as if everything in the world is in it's rightful place.
Also for me it makes spotting otherkin quite a simple task. They are the ones who feel comfortable enough around me to be around me.
The difficulty I have with humans/non kin is that they have no control over their emotions at all. Not just anger, fear, lonliness, hatred and desperate sadness, which are the worst to deal with as they are the strongest emotions and the ones that the humans are in the least fit state to control themselves at the time.
But even the everyday feelings of being rushed, late for work, hungry, tired or anything else. They walk around merrily spilling their feelings all over the place and because I am an empath I pick up on it all. I feel their feelings, I hear their thoughts (and I wish I didn't), I know their secrets. It took me a long time to be able to successfully block it all out and function in their company. Sometimes when I am tired or hungry I still find it hard work!
(Thankfully that isn't often.)
I avoided human contact almost completely for a lot of years because of it, and I am still reluctant to spend time around them, and will not enter a crowded room unless I have no choice, it is just too tiring, and if I don't have to, well then I'd rather not.

If you have found this place then you are very lucky. You will be safe here.
Good luck with your journey of discovery.

One last tip.
Don't rush it, it is a journey not a race. If you take your time you will be sure and miss nothing that may be important to you later. Often the path is winding with many turns and forks along the way and it is impossible to find your way back along it for a second look at something you didn't notice properly the first time.
This is where the real fun begins.
Welcome to the world of Otherkin.
Welcome Home.

This woman, whom I was privileged to call friend was very wise, and I miss her very much.

I really hope this post helps you. If not then you can PM me any time, and I mean any time. If I can help you at all, I will.

Darkness.

Thank you for the post darkness. and you too Zygo. I would have to agree with the person. I can't understand why humans have such wild emotions. It's really hard to get me angry. Anyway, Thanks for the post. They are really encouraging. By the way.... uhh.... Where can I sleep?..... otherkin/cat_eye.gif