I am nearly 31 now and I wondered if 30 was a bit late to be coming round to the idea that maybe the reason I've always felt like I'm not like everyone else is because I'm not like everyone else?

I have never thought anything about my liking for horror movies, especially ones with Vampires and Were's. Guys just like horror movies don't they?
My hard time sleeping at night but how easy it is to nap during the day. Well many people are like that.
My constant craving for something, but never being able to pin point what it was. I don't mean to be rude or crude but most guys just put that down to sex!
Then one night I met a girl at a party, she read auras for a hobby and she said there was something very strange in my aura. I talked to her for over 2 hours that night and agreed to meet her again the next weekend.
She brought some note books with her and we went to the library and sat there on their computers all afternoon.
What we came up with was astounding, at least it amazed me. There was lots of information on Vampires and Weres and a few other otherkin types, elves and fairies, trolls, gnomes, dragons and unicorns. Finding out that you might be 'different', Awakening and having latent possibilities. The advice that mattered most to me in all of that was to simply 'Open myself to the possibility'. Not to judge or dismiss, not to try too hard or have any urges to try and prove it to myself or anyone else. Just to 'let it be and see what happened'.
That advice was so valuable to me. It meant I could relax and see what developed.
What developed was an amazing sense of peace. A sense of rightness that I had never felt before, and a sudden urge to contact others who might feel the same.
I read lots of posts on lots of forums, I even joined a couple of others, but many places seem to insist on proof, which I just haven't got.
Anyway sorry, I have rambled haven't I? I didn't mean to. But there it is.
My first question if you can remember that far back! Was.
Is 30 old to be deciding I am Otherkin? In fact is there a 'right' age?

Oh yeah, just in case you're wondering the girl and I are still friends and we still talk a lot. She's not otherkin, at least not that she knows and she is the only person who knows about me. Well she was until you.

Dea.

There is no proper age for awakening. It happens when it is right, when you are ready. Some people are ready at birth, some when they are very old. It merely takes a moment for the question, how am i different?, to lodge in the mind and to break the floodgates for new possibilities of selfawareness.

Katie is right

I have known I was different since I was about 6, but I was 35 when I became aware of being Kin and 36 when I fully awakened.
Basically it took me 30 years.

as for the becoming I think that has yet to land and I am looking forward to it with open arms/wings.

incidentally I wish I had awakened when I was 6 it would have made life a lot easier for me.

Zygo

Thanks for the replies guys.

I was beginning to half convince myself that it was just some kind of mid-life crisis thing, and I think some of me wishes that was the truth, is that normal too?

Oh I have so many things I want to know and I know half of them are going to sound stupid to you, Milton Keynes they sound stupid to me.

I'd be grateful for a lot of patience.
Thanks.

Dea.

Erm.

I was going to say sorry for swearing ..but.. Milton Keynes?

I know what I typed and it wasn't really a good word for here, but I'd done it before I thought about it.
I know I didn't put Milton Keynes though.

Confused? You will be after the next episode of................

Oh dear!


Dea.

Lady C has arranged for a bad language filter which removes unacceptable words and replaces them with new ones of her choice.
Why Milton Keynes is a mystery though.

As the others have said there is no 'right' time to come to the realisation that you are not and never have been simply human.
For many this can be the hardest thing they have ever faced and the knowledge that you have to face it alone makes it so much harder. Bear with it, it does get easier, especially if you can find a decent place (like this one) to talk about your feelings, doubts, fears, problems and questions about what comes next for you.
I cannot speak for anyone else, but for me, please do not ever apologise for any of these things, they are completely natural.
I do not mind questions, any amount and any silliness, the reason behind the questions is all that matters to me. You are asking out of a genuine need to know not to be difficult or rude, and not to make fun or start trouble.

I hope that I may be of help to you, and that things settle down for you now that you have found this forum.
However remember that there are other places out there that are not as nice nor as friendly. Please be careful out there.

Shade.

Thats the language filter kicking in Dea....one or two of us know what you did type though
Lady C has put the filter in place for several of the worst words and one that comes up occasionally but illustrates the point about swearing quite nicely.
We do have a strict policy on swearing though so do please check your posts before you upload them.

Don't worry about possible silly questions.
As you know we are working to put a dictionary and encyclopedia together so this is a good way of finding the right things to add to the threads.
Alot of us have asked something daft at some point so it's really not a problem.
No one is going to berate you for the occasional wander into the realm of the silly questions.
Just ask away!!!

Zygo

Just wanted to add that Shade posted while I was typing. And as usual has excellent advice.
Thankyou Shade

there isn't really such a thing as a stupid question. For some people the answer might be obvious and to others it may not. The only way you can learn and discover is by asking. This is one of the best places to ask anything you want. It is okay to think and wonder, and it's also okay to ask if you don't know. The only time a question seems silly is if it's obvious to the person you're asking and only a fool treats the questions of someone who is on a quest for truth as silly. As long as (to your knowledge) you are respectful, then by all means, ask away.

also i believe that it is very normal to wish you were human and this was all in your head. It is normal to wish to belong and to find that a main point in your identity is false and the groups you took for granted are no longer yours is difficult. Just remember that even though your world just shimmied into a clearer view, you are still apart of the old one. you just have a different look on things now.

Glad to meet you Dea if you dont mind me calling you that as for the right age for awaking they have pretty much covered it but i would like to add cause I am only 13 and i am already having mine

I'm not sure there is a right time, and if there is I probably missed it.

I wouldn't worry about it, if you an just let it happen whenever it wants and take as long as it needs. At least that's what I'm trying to do. I get impatient sometimes but I think if I'm going to be this for the rest of my life I might as well take my time now and get it right.

I have been awakening for a while now, and I agree with Faith, it takes as long as it takes and doing it properly is very important. You only get one chance to do this right.

Wow Killer I had no idea you were only 13. That is a surprise.

yep i am 13 ,14 in 5 months

Man Wolfie, that signature piccie is awesome.

I love it!! Where did you get it? Did you make it yourself?


Dea.

Excelent Wolfie I'm 14 already so I'm not the kid around here.

Also I have to agree that I don't think there is a proper age like I said I'm 14 and as of yet not one being I'm myself and my wolf. However I want to stay the way I am. However my awakening started when I was 5. Well I'm not sure if it was my awakening but it was when I met my wolf.

Wolfbrother

From what I've heard that's quite early Skeeve. I'm only just beginning my journey of self discovery.

So you'll be an experienced professional by now then?
Excellent, if there's anything I need to know I'll know who to ask.