I have no idea why all of this is happening to me.... I was really happy and ready for halloween. My mom and I are eating a quick meal before she leaves and we get into a conversation and she says " your math teacher sent me an email saying your socialably awkward and make others feel uncomfortable." well i thought about it and i realized a lot of people are "uncomfortable" with me. I don't get it.... I'm human. Theres no reason to be uncomfortable around me. I barely talk to begin with and when i do get into a conversation I don't say anything weird. Kiari says she doesn't know what to say and she told me to forget about it but... I can't. I mean, it just bothers me. She asked me if feel like somethings missing. I said yes. she said "you could be one of us but i doubt it." I tell her I always wanted to fly and have the wind in my hair. I even have dreams about it. That's two things summed into one.... Why do people feel uncomfortable around me and could i be an otherkin?

Silver

It is not impossible.
Though there are other reasons for the things you are feeling, people have made the decision to investigate themselves further on much less evidence.

Everyone here will have considered themselves human at one stage until they had a reason to look deeper into themselves in search of something that is not human in any way.

I believe the advice usually given at a time like this is to try meditation and search for your inner self.
Reflection meditation is especially good for this.
Ensure you are somewhere quiet where you will not be disturbed, and sit comfortably.
Focus on your breathing, and try to still your mind. It doesn't have to be empty, but focussed and quiet will help you.
Imagine yourself in a corridor with a door at the end. As you walk toward the door pull your mind inside yourself and let it search your memories and the center of your being in search of your essence. When you reach the door open it slowly and look across to the far side of the room. You should see a very large mirror hanging on the wall.
Walk slowly across the floor towards the mirror, with your eyes on your feet. Watch yourself make each step.
When you are standing in front of the mirror slowly lift your gaze, and allow yourself to see your essence, and not the outer cover of human flesh you would normally see gazing back at you.
You may have to do this exercise several times before it works effectively, but if there is anything to see this is one way to find it.
I wish you luck.

One final word of advice. I know that Kiari is your friend and that she will be thinking of you and your comfort when she says things to you, but there are others who will not be thinking of you, they will only be thinking of themselves. Do not let them tell you that you cannot be this. You could be, and even though it is not our place to tell you that you are, it is not their place to tell you that you aren't.

The question here is what does your "gut", the inner you say? Does it say "I'm completely human"? Or "look deeper"? It could be you're 100% human and people feel odd around you solely because you're different. Or you could be not completely human.

The only person who can figure that out is you.

Quite a lot of people are uncomfortable with me too Silver, but then I'm not human, except in the most unimportant and superficial way of course, so that explains it for me.
If you feel like you might be different, then there is a better than average chance that you're only superficially human too. (humans are very rarely different, and rarely make each other uncomfortable!)

The bits of your post that shout loudest to me are
1. You have spoken to your friend about it and asked her counsel.
2. She has given you her best advice, and you trust her and her judgement, and yet you still don't want to take it.
3. You have thought about it and feel that you simply can't just walk away and forget about it.
4. You feel that something is 'missing'.
5. You have always wanted to fly and feel the wind in your hair. So much that you have even had dreams about it.

Taken on their own none of these points means very much, but when you group them together like this it may mean something.
I think it would be a good idea to look into it. Even if you find nothing, because there might be nothing to find, then at least you will have looked, and you can move on knowing that you tried. You didn't just say of course I couldn't be something else, I'm human and that's that.
No matter what you feel you may or may not be, if you settle for anything it would be a mistake. Whatever you do in your life, even for a career/job, you should never settle.
Always aim for the highest you can get, and always aim to be yourself no matter what.

Whisper's post is a great place to start. Even if all you ever see is a human reflection, it won't be a waste of time, and you won't hurt yourself or anyone else by looking into it.
Good luck.

Faith

Trust yourself Silver. Trust your common sense and your feelings.. They are always, if you allow them to be, true to you.
Don't worry about your beliefs for now, they can and will take care of themselves.
See for yourself if you are on the right track. Does it feel right? does what you are feeling make sense to you?.
Don't rush it.
Once you have an answer let it sit for a while and see if it still feels right a couple of days, a week later or even longer.

If it still doesn't feel right, then ask why it doesn't and ask more questions of yourself or ask Kiari, ask here, or on google, or wherever you feel you will best get an answer.

Zygo

Me and Kiari haven't spoke for awhile but she texted me saying sorry. I sat down and started meditating and I fell asleep which I think is what is supose to happen.I saw a lot of weird things. I saw a wolf running through a forest, a white Tiger standing on a mountain beside a waterfall with the wind blowing, a bird flying high and freely in the sky. I saw a human who looked to be 5 or 6 years old standing with their arms spread open to look like a plane and running in the breeze. I saw another human who looked to be in their teens riding a bike as fast as they could. when i woke I felt as if I had been all of these things. I felt good and full of energy. I don't get what all of these things stood for though. I just know they were haveing a good time.

Silver

Sometimes I fall asleep when I try to meditate. I'm not sure if that is what is supposed to happen, but it nearly always brings me something fascinating.

You don't have to decide now, you have plenty of time. If you try again you may see more clearly any messages your vision is trying to give you.


All those figures that you saw could have been you, at different times in different lives. If they were then that kind of rules out human. lol