I really hope you don't mind me asking, but how did you become a donor?

It's something I have often been curious about.

If you don't want to say, or you can't remember that's alright.

Lady C.

arhh interesting story...

one of my favorites

let me just put everyones mind at rest and say im not a weird masochist type who just woke up one morning and thought "well today i want to be sliced up and drank from."

when my vampire came out to me as a friend i didnt believe him, but he got me to check a few things out and i started to warm to the idea of his vampirism.

i wasnt to warm to the idea of donoring though to begin with, i didnt know how someone could do that.

unfortunately he was finding it hard to find a donor, as he has rules ( totally understandable) about the kind of people he would take from, so i stepped up for a one time thing. that turned into many times as i warmed to the idea and we began researching more into it.

i never really wanted to be a donor for long, or to anyone else for that matter, because to be honest im scared of blood and i only really do it as a favor when it is badly needed.

so its a casual relationship more the anything, i just have my own issues that i have to get over. the people who know about me tend to be very prejudgest about it, so im trying to overcome that.

I am sure that you're not a masochist of any kind, I have always thought that donors need to be special people to be willing to do this, even for someone who is a close friend.
I wouldn't think it's the kind of thing anyone would agree to do without a lot of thought. Even if you do only do it when it is badly needed your friend must be very special to you.

Don't most donors give to just the one Vampire? I thought that it was mostly that a donor would have one Vampire, but a Vampire may need to have more than one donor. Of course I could be wrong, but I am sure that's what I heard.
I spoke to one girl once who was a donor for her b/f, and she said that she had been approached before by someone else, but hadn't wanted to, but when her b/f told her he was a Sang Vamp she hadn't hesitated to offer. I asked her if it was the love she felt for him that she hadn't felt for the other person, and she said only partly. She said that the most important thing to her was trust, and although now the love gave her even more trust, that the trust had been there before the love. It was a two way thing she said. The trust she felt for him over this had given her the faith to love him, and the love she felt for him gave her even more trust, because she knew he would never hurt her, because he loved her too.
I thought that was amazing, it must take a lot of trust to donor for anyone, and they were some of the lucky ones. She found everything she needed in him, and he found everything he needed in her.
A true love story.
Ahh I'm a sucker for happy endings. lol

Is it something you think you'll ever get used to? I mean will it get easier over time or do you think it's something you'll nearly always have some trouble with?

It's a shame that sometimes when you tell them things like this people don't understand. How many of them do you think fail to hear you telling them about yourself, and completely by mistake hear you trying to make them become the same as you instead? There are lots of times when I have told someone something was a good idea for me and worked for me, and they have taken it totally the wrong way, and thought it was me telling them that it would be a good idea for them. They get really offended and nothing I can say can get them to hear what I really meant, calm down and understand that I wasn't saying they should do it too, only that it worked for me.
Or maybe I'm the only one this happens to.

i dont think its something i'll ever really get used to. my fear controls me a lot of the time, but the love i have for my vampire, it helps a lot with overcoming my fear some of the time.

i wouldnt donor to anyone else just on principle, i do it as a favor and out of love and respect, i havnt found any other vampire yet who i feel that strongly for.
i have heard of some donors having more then one vampire. i dont think they would have them at the same time just for safety reasons but you never know.

it does take a lot of trust to donor, you have to be able to trust that person with your safety, of course the donor plays their part in making sure their blood is always clean through -*test*-('")s (which is something im trying to work up to, it hasnt been a problem so far but situations changed and we both now feel we need to be -*test*-('")ed)

Well -*test*-('")s are a good idea just to be safe. Safety is so important these days.

Is it a needle phobia that worries you about the -*test*-('")s?
I hate needles.

yes it is, ive always had a phobia and its something that has stopped me form doing alot of things in life. like i said a -*test*-('") wasnt needed when we started, as we were both young. but now that we have social lives and go out with people alot more its become needed just to check... im trying to book in hypnotherapy or find him another donor for the mean time.

I find the grit my teeth and don't look method works pretty well, but I don't think mine is quite bad enough to be called a phobia. So that probably won't work for you, unfortunately.

Good luck with the hypnotherapy, or replacement donor.

Thankyou terri. I really appreciate you replying.