story in progress

Here is something Ih ave been working on..tell me your opinions on it. it's just the first chapter

Love. The word dances in my head like sugar plums around christmas time. I didn't love him, per say, but I knew I liked him. What was it about Alec that attracted me so? I have a whole group of boys at my mercy and I choose the only one who is taken. Why was life so difficult
The bell disrupted my thoughts and left me in a trance for a second. I am usually waiting on Alec, but recently it has been that way. His worrying was really starting to show. But it doesn't show to others, I am the only one who really sees it I suppose.

"what are you thinking about?"
How much I would like to be the one holding your hand than her holding it, I thought. "Nothing. Honestly" I attempted a smile but he saw past it. "Just there is alot on my mind...Just home stuff, nothing to worry about."
"okay" was all he said but the fact he kept his eys forward, and there was that smile, agian only I caught.Sigh. Why was I the only one who could ever cactch these things? Seriously. We was approaching the cafeteria, and in there, as usual, would be waiting a group of boys, my boys as i liek to call htem, they would be waiting and their thoughts as disturbing and wanting as the looks on their face was.
The smell had hit me earlier, it was fish. And not the usual yummy fish that you buy from a market but the thirty minutes in the oven and it's done fish. Nasty stuff. I picked up my blue tray and got the bare nescessites. What I didn't pick at someone was sure to eat.
I sat down between John and Taylor and before I could even offer the food to anyone John was already taking dibs on the fish. Passing the tray to him, I couldn't help but notice how much Alec and his girlfriend(god why can't i ever remember her name?) looked so, awkward. Not that gushy kissy way, but they just wasn't right. We was meant to be. Not him and her. But I refused to break them up. I had to admit it, I was already hopelessly in love with a man who could never be more than a friend.
"Hey! Elizabeth, hello? Take your damn tray! I wont say it agian!"
"Shutup John, Noone ever asked for your opinion on life"
"Screw you"
I stick my tongue out. John and I have been friends since we was born practically so banting like this was normal conversation. After they finished the last crumb of food (UGH!) We left out to face the insane world of our school.The bell always seemed like forever.We all said our goodbyes, and I rushed off to math class when she stopped me. Oh god what did his girlfriend want this time?

Sarah came rushing after me hollering for me to stop. Her golden blond hair was bouncing behind her, and as she got closer I couldn't help but notice how her makeup really didn't help her skin complexion. I smiled at this
"What?"
"Walk with me, I want to tell you something." Ok..what was this woman up to? She hardly ever talked to me and her I'm-so-happy mood always made me vision myself hanging her or choking her.
"So, what?"
She took a deep breathe. Whatever it was wasn't going to be good. I could feel it. One of the downfalls of being empathic. "I am breaking up with Alec."
I froze in mid step. my mind froze for half a second. Was I happy about it? I was thrilled, I wanted to hug her for the first time in my life! but on the other hand I wanted to take my soft, cold, pale hands and wring her little neck out. "Why? I thought you to had something really good going on this time?"
"I am tired with him, and I kinda like another guy." The whore, i thought quietly to myself.
"oh? Who? Are you going to tell Alec? Who all knows?" These questions I blurted out before I had the chance to stop myself. My self control was weak when it came to him.
"woo ah! Slow down with the questions. Listen, I am going to be late for class, so I will write you a note. Bye!" She hollered as she ran down the hall. Should I tell him? I went into my Algebra class and set down in the front, and there he sat, smiling and happy. How little did he realize his world was going to be shattered. Or did he? Alec has an uncanny sense of knowing things. It was odd. but he was odd, I liked that about him. I liked the way his black hair was so soft, even though it could be longer and how his skin when I brushed it was so....
"Are you paying attention to me? Elizabeth?Helllooooo?" Who the *Milton Keynes* was disrupting my thoughts?
"What?" I said a bit to meaner than I should have been.
"Hi! Alec here. trying to get your attention. I was asking you something. but you don't seem in the mood. Everything alright?"
oh..he was talking I felt so bad for missing his question. What had he asked?
"sorry, no. yes. I mean, yes everything is okay," Damn, I stumbled on my answer. Did he notice? "what was your question Alec?"
"What did Sarah want to talk to you about?"He had noticed. Now what? Lie. I can't do that. Can I? No, defiantly not. So tell him. But now? I didn't want to.
"I will tell you in Science."
"no I want to know now, please?" god, the way he says please makes me hurt to say no.
"I said later, class is starting"
"okay, I will expect one..and I won't forget I promise you I won't" So we sat there and listened to Mr. Nime, yes his name was Nime..odd right? anyway we listened to him go on and on and on about some Algebra equation or something. I wasn't listening to half of what he said. As my thoughts have been recently, my mind was on him. Only this time, should I tell him the truth? or try to lie and let him see through it? Either way, I am *in trouble*. And apparently his "best friend" Nicole wouldn't tell him. I have to tell him. When the bell rang I was out of there before he could even attempt to start a conversation.
The rest of the day went by fast, to fast. I dreaded last hour. Man I really need to do some grounding and cleansing and meditation. I needed to get out of this body. To much stress. Why I chose human form, I will never know. Maybe it was the senses were so much more grand than in essence form. Who knows?
I sat down in my seat by the window and looked out it. The sun was shining. I hate the sun. To bright. Burns my skin, not in the sense of ouch I am on fire sense but in the it's getting to hot in here sense.I knew he came in. I sensed it. I could smell him. God, I can never get over how wonderful Alec smelled. It was like heaven on a body. God, I am ridiculous. He isn't mine. He is hers. For now. How can I think that?! Man I was so torn. One hand he was happy, I could see that, but then again shouldn't I be happy? Alec slowly sat down, his eyes full of coriousity, damn, he didn't forget. Oh well, I could hope, right? He just stared at me.
"I don't want to tell you.." What a way to begin!
"Please tell me. You know you want to." More than he knew. He begged and I resisted the whole hour partly through notes and partly through conversation. Finally about ten minutes left of class, I looked at his eyes, now worried.sigh. this was going to be hard.
"Sarah wants...to break up. But I am not suppose to tell you and she said she was going to tell you, but she is telling everyone and I don't think it is right to do that to you, its not their business its yours and hers." The words came rushing out before I could stop myself. Then I saw it. The pain. I knew it was going to hurt. Not him, but me to. I cant stand to see him in pain. I wanted to take his hand and hug him and tell him it was going to be ok. but I couldn't. He wasn't mine. he isn't mine. he isn't mine. I keep telling myself this.I couldn't go and touch his hand softly and kiss it ever so gently. I couldn't hug him and give an extra squeeze to "accidentally" pull our bodies together more, making me feel like we are one instead of two. Instead all I told him was how sorry I was and how I wish deeply I could make it better. And I let him walk out of the classroom, I couldn't tell him anything..and It killed me inside.I would have to hunt tonight.

walked out into the woods, alone, as I do on occasions. This one was me needing to get out of reality, out of the human mixture of emotions and feelings. I wonder sometimes why I had chosen to be human. Why she chose it. We called ourselves as one but we can talk to each other. Kinda reminded me of the book I had read recently, The Host. A leaf crackled in the distance bringing me to full alert. I glanced around. It was just a bunny. I took another look around and got into the "clearing", rather a circle of trees where I do what I do best. There was not a human in sight or anything. Except that bunny. My stomach rumbled. I wanted to hunt. To eat that fluffy bunny. To drink its blood and eat it's meat. Both was appealing and repulsive. I took a deep sigh and closed my eyes, taking in every smell of the familiar scenery. In that one sigh I leaped out of my clothing and for that one moment I flew. Then my paws hit the hard cool ground. My black and white fur whipped in the air as I ran. I ran past the bunny, my senses different than the blood sucker I had been only moments ago, knew the bunny wasn't enough to satisfy my wants. the breeze was perfect.
Hey, I am not a blood sucker.
Oh sorry, but wasn't it you who I saw that blood donor needed in the want ad I saw the other day?
I drink it. I need it. Just like you need that deer you are after.
She had a point, rather I had a point. Gah! times like this got so confusing because we was one, but two. It was odd. But she was right, the deer in the meadow ahead did smell like a five course meal.And my stomach was about to kill me with its noises. I hope it doesn't give me away before i can catch the deer.
I stalked up to the deer. Slowly, and steadily. I stepped closer and closer. The deer, no a doe, swarmed me and swallowed me whole. I licked my..well, not lips but the equivalent of lips. I reached it closer and closer, it was at the other side of the field. I am happy it is a dull cloudy day, makes it less harsh on my eyes and it's darker so I am less likely to be seen.
I paused, prepped myself and leaped for it, and in one swift move I had Its neck snapped.
The blood and meat all at once tasted sweet and disgusting in my mouth at once. It played with me and my mind and I couldn't do anything but live with it. I had to be careful not to get to messy, my mother would worry. blood on your body, yeah how do you explain that? I finished the deer off and ran back towards the direction I came.
The meat you could've ate less of.
Well, you could've left me alone
Whatever.
I got on my own nerves at times. I ran back to my clothes, shifted back quickly. It was dark by now. How had it got so late? I pulled my clothes on, and rushed back home, I was faster in this form anyway. I could dodge quicker. I pushed myself harder than I should but ten miles was alot to cover in about five minutes. On my way home I thought of how I was going to explain my lateness to my mother. Maybe she would be asleep and not notice. I could only hope.