I've been reading round and I want to ask do any of you remember any of your past lives?
And if I don't does that mean I'm making all this up?
Am I imagining these feelings that I'm feeling?

Silken.

I remember bits and pieces of my past lives, moments faces events that sort of thing. I used to just pass them off as dreams that just seemed super real and that i'd accidentally mistake for real dreams. And then i realized that my first instinct to believe them as real was right and that i've had random memories spilling out in my dreams. Since then i've had other memories surface, but i wasn't very nice in a lot of those past lives so i tend to keep them locked up. i dont want to remember the bad things i did nor the lives i had to live in order to make up for them.

but you don't have to have past memories to be real. amnesiacs are no less alive than you. You are not making it up. the things you're feeling are real and most importantly, you are not crazy because you believe in yourself. Now you might have some other random insanity that i know nothing about that makes you crazy, but this certainly isnt it.

I have not seen anything of my past lives yet that i know of and i would love to hear some of yours unless you dont want to talk about them then i under stand


Shadow Stalker

I'll tell you some of what I am comfortable with, but a lot of it shames me. I remember bits and pieces of being different animals, but they were a long time ago and so they're harder to see. and then the humans started covering more of the globe and i decided it would be wiser to take that form and hopefully live longer. But i had become an irritated soul and with a few human lives i became angry. after i became an angry soul i fell into love with the hunt. only it wasn't the true hunt, it was a human hunt, to slaughter and wallow in blood for the mere joy of killing with no respect to the life taken. So I became a warrior without honor and i worked for my king and slaughtered thousands because he asked, they were worthless and i enjoyed it. I did terrible things and i remember most of them. I don't want to, but i deserve it. I shouldn't be given such a reprieve as to forget my misdeeds. I had two lives like this. In the second i killed someone i probably shouldn't have and in the end i believe they made it so i couldn't choose my next life, either because my bad karma was full or they had the power to do so. But after that i lived several lives all of which were similar to my own victims. I lived through each atrocious act i myself committed. I don't remember much of those lives except what i believe to be the harshest moments, usually right before death. I had one or two simple lives with no great change except the usual hard times and i took a run in my panthers body for a span. eventually this reality was too heavy for me, I couldn't take it anymore so i drifted in the otherlife for a while. I stayed alone in the dark. I remember a cave and some beautiful lights and i stayed there for i don't know how long trying to, not forgive myself because what i did was disgusting, but at least love who i've become. I still hate myself a little. I always had it while growing up and never really understood it until my memories surfaced, which unfortunately made it worse. But my lives outside of those two have been attempts to be good. I've lived a very good life so far in this form, so i think someone's forgiven me at least. I'm glad i at least was able to learn from my anger, tho it still follows me from life to life. for once i have control of it and i can love more than i hate, but it's hard remembering because i become that person in my memories with a little voice in the back of my head screaming in outrage.

But that's why i don't like remembering. I am now good (mostly) and i have memories of a very evil person. It hurts knowing that was me. And it scares me because there's a chance i could slide down that road again. I can feel the possibility, way back behind my heart, but so far i love life more than death... so yeah... also i don't know if these are the only lives i've lived, they're just the moments with the strongest emotional level behind them that have broken out of my cage. i have random memories that don't seem to fit in other things i've remembered, but again i don't go searching through them because i'm afraid of what else i might find.... and that's me opening up to the forum...

kat

Sorry to divert your thread Cobweb, and I promise I will answer your question later.

But this is most important... Katie.

Aww love, they are immense things to share with us and I am honoured, and humbled by your faith and trust. I wish I knew what to say to you to help you, but I don't have any words of wisdom.
I think if you can think about it enough to write down as much as you have then things must be improving and I am very glad about that.

I believe everyone has inside them the capacity to be good or not so good. (I think it takes a special type of being to be evil.) I also think it is possible for a good person to do bad things for what they believe to be good reasons.
What is most important I think is where a person is now. This is the life you can do something about, this is the one where you have influence, this is the life in your control. Take this life and live it to the best of your ability.
Remembering bad things we've done in our past lives can be used to our advantage in future incarnations. It can help us to ensure we never become those people again.
I don't think that your memories shame you.... But I do think that the fact that you think they do shows just how far you have come.
You are no longer that person, and if you ever doubted it ask youself this:
Would the person that did those things be ashamed by the recounting of these deeds?
I think probably not.

You are a long way from the person who did these things and I think you deserve credit for all the hard work and dedication it has taken to bring you to this point.
The point where you can say "This is who I was and this is what I did, and I never want to go back there again."
I hope you don't mind if I say I am proud of you, not only for your hard work, but also for your bravery in sharing this with all of us.
I hope we will prove to be worthy of the trust you have placed in us.
Much love to you...

Lady C.

OK Firstly I have to answer the question as I don't want Lady C mad at me.
No I have no memories of past lives at all yet, heck I haven't even got a tail yet, so I am still waiting for much of myself to make an appearance.
Sorry Cobweb.

And Katie, I would hate to have these kinds of memories. Though please don't misunderstand me, I don't think I will be excluded from having memories like this, I just haven't had any yet.
I'm sure to have done some unsavoury things in my past... somehow I kind of feel them there just waiting to be recalled. Sometimes it's scary.
Thankyou for writing your story, as if I do have anything really awful to recall it will help a lot to know that I am not the only one who might have done something in the past they truly regret now.
I am glad things are better for you this time. I hope that they keep getting better as time goes on.

Faith.

thank you both. your words mean a lot to me. it's hard sometimes to remember that i'm not that person anymore, and hopefully never will be again, and i get lost in my own self loathing because of it. But you both give me words to help me pull me out of my self infliction. so thank you. and i know i don't really need to, but thanks for not being disgusted or anything negative about who i was. It's not that, logically, i think anyone would treat me badly by my confession, but it's one of those silly little doubts that worms its way into my heart. a sort of, i disgust myself so it should disgust others, type of mentality. i know you wouldn't treat me any differently, but thank you, for being who you are so that i don't have to worry about that, i guess...

thanks.

kat.

edited to say, i hope you get the happiest memories, faith. I don't think you'll be plagued with some similar to these ones. mine never really stayed quiet even long before i was ready to realize my Self, so i think (and hope) you're memories will be lovely.

Don't give us too much credit Katie.

I do like you and I support you and I understand how hard you must have worked to become the lovely person we see today.
But I also know and accept that your story could be the story of any of us aswell and might well be in the future.
I think we have all done whatever it takes to survive in the past, and I know I still would if it came to it.
I am discovering a darker side to myself these days and though I am getting help and understanding with that I still feel very much alone, and scared.
I know for a fact that there is something there hiding in the shadows at the back of my mind, waiting for me. I have been ignoring it, but I don't think I'm going to be able to do that for much longer.
So maybe we are nice, but I have my own reasons too, for being so understanding. It doesn't make me less accepting or sympathetic. It doesn't make me understand less or care any less, but I am not just coming from a purely altruistic view point and I thought you deserved my honesty aswell as everything else.
There but for the grace of the goddess...Go I.
Trust that your nature has evolved since the last time you were the creature you are so afraid and ashamed of being.
We love you.
Darke.

Cobweb:
I have been getting fragments through, like the dreams Katie described. Unreal and yet so vivid and brightly coloured. So far from me and yet such an intrinsic part. They speak to me and yet come from me at one and the same time. And I am scared of the tales they tell.
I am not sure what they mean, but for what it's worth I can assure you Katie, you are not the only one who has the kind of dreams Stephen King would pay money for.
There is hardly ever sound though. Pictures in vivid colour and sometimes smells, but only minimum sound.

Darke.

I have lots of memories never as me though, well they are me but... Let me explain.
I am two people I believe me and Donkeyman have slipped up enough for me to feel safe saying my name is Brian so I'm Brian and the Wolf. I have no memories of Brian's essence however I have memories of the wolf's lives with his "hosts" and they are always very clear. If I need one I open up and take what I need, they are really usefull he's been a doctor which helps and a stratigist which is useful.
However "WE" for we are seperate and alienated through time yet exactly the same have done terrible things. That I don't even want to bring up most of them are fine but I few have scared me. If you want to hear some of the good ones please ask but foor now this post is getting a bit long.

Wolfbrother

With that one sentence you have just made Zygo's life so much easier.
Thankyou.

Wolfbrother i do not completely understand if you would explain more for me on here or if u dont want to you could always pm me

I think he already knew my name from our Email conversation and if the name he put on there is his real one I know his then as well. I really don't care.

Wolfbrother

Ahh I think I did not make myself clear Wolfbrother. I'm sorry about that.
In order to comply with the security rule that operates on forums like this we had to change 'Brian' to 'Wolfbrother' in Donkeyman's posts..
And Zygo was the one who did this.
Now you have told everyone your real name that means that Zygo doesn't have to keep watch for it anymore.

OK I thought you meant like he was trying to find out ok. Wolfie the memory thing is a little confusing even for me and I'm living it!
Pretty much how it works is that picture yourself and your wolf. You're probably two sides of the same coin. Now I'm two different coins in the same pocket. The Brian coin and the Wolf coin. The Brian coin is nice and newly minted and this is the first pocket it's been in (To my knowledge) While the wolf has lived inside many pockets (people).WOW This meataphore is getting really confusing. so the Wolf has all the knowledge it has obtained over it's life and Brian can use these memories at will. So when I die the wolf will find another "Pocket" to live in and this person will have all of those past memories PLUS mine. Sorry if this doesn't make sense if not please PM me.
Not just you either Wolfie but anyone who may be curious

Wolfbrother

Wolfbrother aalmost beat the $%&* out of me with a large stick while having a flashback