Well, hello all. I might as well introduce myself, no? My name is Sachael (sah-khay-el, if you were wondering), but you're welcome to call me Sach, Kate (the name my parents gave me), or even Hey You, as long as you don't call me Alpaca Sock ("sock" is how Sach is pronounced, and my friend called me a pair of fuzzy socks once when I happened to be wearing said socks...).

Now that that's out of the way...about me.

You may want to sit back and relax, because this is going to be a very long post, seeing as I'm the first of my kintype to join this forum.

I consider myself an angel, as you can see in the topic header. I have known this for sure for a little over a year now, although I guess you could say I'm still in the process of awakening, as I'm constantly remembering more and learning more to this day.

It all started March 7 of last year. I had already been introduced to the idea of otherkin by my close friend, who identified as an angel, September of the previous year, so the idea was nothing new to me. I had suspicions that I was otherkin, but I had no idea what kind, or even how to go about figuring myself out. Then, on February first, A. (I'll refer to her by this for the sake of privacy) ran away, soon after turning 18. I couldn't really blame her...her mother constantly drank and beat her almost every day. I figured out pretty soon after that that A. wasn't going to be around to help me any more, so I decided to start investigating possible kintypes on my own.

I had thought for a while that I was some sort of cat, due to the urge to purr when happy and hiss/grow/scratch when sad or upset. But that just didn't seem right, as I'd often had dreams of myself as a cat, but with four huge teal wings, and besides that, "cat" just didn't FIT.

I also have always had an itching feeling on my shoulderblades, and on my waist on my lower back. I could sometimes SWEAR I had physical wings, because I could sometimes feel the wind ruffling the soft, sleek feathers. So come mid-February, I had the idea...I think I might be an angel, like A.

I started poking around online, searching for validation. Then, on March 7, I stumbled across the name "Sachael". It looked familiar, and sounded pleasant when I said it, but I shrugged it off. After all, I also wish my parents had named me "Annalisse", but that didn't mean "Annalisse" was ME. But something kept dragging me back to that name. Something made me associate ME with that name. I studied it more closely, and then I sat back and said "Oh..my...God....how could I forget that? How could I forget my own name?". Then, for no reason whatsoever, I started to cry.

I've done MUCH more research into myself since then, and I've come to the conclusion that I am one of the cherubim. That FINALLY explained why I had feline tendencies: one form a cherub can take is that of a giant winged cat. Now I have a clear picture of that feline form: the body and face of a jaguar, but the thinner tail and coloring of a lioness, and on the back, four huge wings the color of a murky teal stream, two at my shoulderblades, and two and the hips.

There are two memories that I remember especially clearly: one of Home, the first level of Heaven, and one of Father, God Himself. Those memories are unforgettable.

Father: It's like when you were a child and your mother held you and rocked you to sleep..a feeling of utter peace, security, and love. Once you see His face or hear Him say your name, everything is wiped from your mind except unconditional love, and the longing to just hear/see Him again. You get this feeling that you would NEVER even THINK of going against what He asks you to do, because you KNOW that whatever it is, it's for the best. It's the most wonderful feeling in the universe. Even the deepest, truest love you feel here in this life is a weak shadow in comparison.

Heaven: I only have a few CLEAR memories, but there's this one i really like. It's a huge cool, damp forest with mossy ground, but there's nothing dead. No dead pine needles or leaves or ANYTHING, everything is so ALIVE. There's deep rocky streams filled with something that LOOKS like water, but it's actually the song of angels, the universe, life itself. Absolute peace and tranquility.

The rank of cherub even makes sense, as, before I had figured out my angelic nature, I had referred to myself as a Singer. Singer, I later discovered, is an obscure and archaic title for the choirs of Heaven: the cherubim.

Well....I suppose that does it for now. If you have any questions, I'll be happy to answer them to the best of my ability.

Welcome new person.
It's lovely to meet you.

I have never met an Angel before.
I think, if I understand things correctly, that although I identify with the yin/yang, Male/Female essence of creation which I call 'The Source', the deity you call 'God' works in a much similar way, and the feelings are very similar too. Only the names are different.
I think..?

I can identify with the itchy feeling between your shoulder blades. I had that too when I arrived. Oooh it was awful. I could see and feel wings but of course no-one else could.
I thought at first I could be one of the Fallen, but didn't know if there were female Fallen.
Anyway a really smart person and all round great bloke (Hi Zygo.) told me to look down and count my feet.
I stopped at four but still had the wings. A little more intense thought brought me to the conclusion I am a pegasus.
So from one winged being to another I welcome you to Castle Otherkin.
Pick a room, the South side gets all the sun and there are plenty of rooms there, (for some reason the Vampires don't want South facing rooms ) The beds are way too comfy and theres is always tons of hot water. Food's good too.
When you've unpacked have a wander round it's great here.
Talk soon.
Faith.

Oh and if you hear howling later it's only the Castle Choir. Some nights the Weres gather on the battlements for a howl-in when the sun goes down.

*takes the advice, chooses a nice sunny room, and starts finding places for all her books, angel-themed figurines, and tabletop waterfall fountains*

Oh, VERY good!!!! I couldn't have said it better myself ^_^

STANDARD DISCLAIMER: WHAT FOLLOWS IS ENTIRELY MY OPINION

I think God has different names and faces. Whatever you call Him/Her/Them/It, I don't think God minds at all. I lean towards "universal religion" myself. It's the theory that all gods are the same indefinable being, cultural differences explaining the different religions.

Hello Sachael.
Welcome to CastleOtherkin.
It's good to see you here.
Feel free to post anywhere you like, we all have opinions on all sorts of subjects so don't feel limited by the section titles.
If you have any questions post them out there on the forum and see what happens ...somebody usually has an answer or idea that can help.
We have a few rules, if you haven't already read them they are up there in the top left of the page and a there are a couple of places for a really good rant if you feel the need anytime.
If you have any problems just let us know and we'll see what we can do to help.

Most of all while you're here have fun and enjoy your stay.

Zygo

Welcome I'm Wolfbrother and I'm an achohlic
Na I'm screwing with ya sorry if the choir (Which I'm a proud member of" wakes you.
Since I've been researching angels for awhile expect me to bombard you with messages sometime soon.
Enjoy the castle and Welcome

Wolfbrother

Hi,
I haven't been here very long myself so I am still settling in.
I'm not sure what kin I am, I'm still searching. I don't have wings of any kind but that still gives me plenty of things I could be.

Once you're settled in could I come see your ornaments? Angels are so beautiful

Lovely to meet you.

Silken.

Welcome to the Castle Sachael, It's a pleasure to meet an Angel finally. We have a few other Fallen, including myself, yet no Angels till your arrival. The South side of the castle is quite nice, but I personally enjoy the North side of the Castle, the shade is quite pleasurable. This is a wonderful place to be, everyone here is like family with one another, and it's nice to see another join our ever growing family. If you ever care to chat, feel free to message me.

~DA~

welcome to the castle. i can't wait to see you around the halls and to hear what you have to say. i hope you enjoy your stay.

Hi Sachael.
Welcome you to my favourite place. Welcome to my home.
This is a very special place for me full of family, good friends and welcome guests.
We work hard to try and give the forum a welcoming atmosphere and a comfortable feel.
I hope you will soon feel at home here yourself.

I see that Zygo has done his moderator bit and explained about reading the rules and such so I will not repeat his excellent advice. I'd hate to upset him.

I am really looking forward to getting to know you better and learning about Angelkin.

If you have any problems please feel free to contact either the Admin of the site (that's me ) Or my lovely Head Moderator. Zygo.... He'll be the one setting fire to the curtains.
We'll do what we can to help.

Lady C.

Thats me .. just follow the smoke and I'll be the one at the other end of the trail, which is unfortunate seeing as I tend to spend my time in the basement next to the river ...the smoke gets everywhere on a good day
Welcome to the Forum Sach I hope you like what you find here.
Watch your wings on the vines on the north wall ..they do awful things to the feathers.
Oh yes the out of tune howler is Captive Wild but he doesnt get here very often so he won't grate on your ears too much.
It's terrible to be a wolf that cant howl.

Zygo

Hello Sachael, welcome to the best home for Otherkin.

I hope you find a home here and are happy that you found this place.

I am an honest person, some say unkind, some say blunt. I prefer straightforward. I will tell it like it is and mostly people don't like that.
I don't mean to be unkind and would never hurt anyone on purpose.

I have a probelm with Angels.
Not with you, but with Angels. I will explain so that you understand why. Then perhaps we can at least get along.

I am Shadow.
Every person I have ever met that has claimed Angel as a kin type, (and here I mean literally all of them), has said they are either
Fallen Angels. - I do not believe the Fallen to be Angel kin, and many of the Fallen do not either.
Or.
That Angels are Shadow kin. - They are not. Shadow are Shadow kin.
Or.
That they owed it to me to 'bring me to the mercy of God'. - No thank you.
None of the Angels I have met simply believed themselves to be Angels. They have all tried to twist the things I believe in to bring me round to 'God'.
I do not believe that kin would do that to other kin, and therefore Angels cannot be real kin.
I am willing to admit here that there is a HUGE possibility (in fact likelihood) that my previous contact with alleged Angels has coloured this view.
I AM happy to meet you Sachael. I really WOULD love to learn more about you, and I AM willing to listen with an open mind.
I am quite willing and ready to discover that although I was right about the 'so called Angels ' I have met so far, there are real Angels out there who act and think like kin. With only the betterment and education, help and friendship of other kin in their minds and hearts.
I hope to see much more of you here.
I do not ask you to prove yourself, I would never do that. But please be yourself and allow your actions and your being to help me to a better understanding of your kin, and through that to a greater belief in Angel kin.

Shade.

Wow, remind me never to take Ny Quill and a long morning nap! When I do, apparently, many many replies to my introduction pop up!

I'm going to run off and take a shower, and then I'll try to answer each and every one of you.

And Shade? Nahhh no hard feelings whatsoever. Those people you've described sound like (pardon le French) buttholes. Don't blame you for feeling that way.

ZYGOPTERIX

*snaps off a salute* Read and understood, El Capitan!

WOLFBROTHER

Oh, no trouble at all, send as many messages as you want! I'm currently looking for a job, so all I really do is sit in my apartment all day, surfing the internet and waiting for my boyfriend (also an angel, incidentally) to get home from work. Your messages would break the monotony and give me something to do...I like feeling useful.

COBWEB

*blushes deeply* Oh, but of COURSE! *opens door* Sorry about the little bit of mess...I'm not a very tidy person.

DARKANGEL

Oh, no doubt! You might find me enjoying the shade once in a while; I sometimes am in the mood to hide in a nice cool, shady corner instead of baking in the sunlight.

KATIE

I will indeed! Feel free to drop by any time for tea, cookies, and a game of Blackjack.

COMETOME

You're more than welcome to drop me a line any time you wish! I'll try to answer any questions as best I can.

ZYGOPTERIX

There's a RIVER??? Ooooooh, you HAVE to show me, I loooooove water!

Youch *grimace* I suppose you'd know from experience? Warning taken! *avoids the nasty trapping vines*

SHADE

Hmmm, yes, I've heard that before. In my personal experience, most of the Fallen I have met claim the traditional Christian definition of Fallen angels: they made a big oops, and God gave then a whupping out of Heaven. But I'm always eager to learn other definitions! Granted, I think my definition of Fallen angels has been greatly colored by my own hazy recollections and my Catholic upbringing.

What...the...????????????????? I know a few Shadow kin, actually. From what they've told me, shadows are big formless blobs of...energy or something...right? Neither good nor bad, just sort of...there. Although...the shadow who explained all this tends to speak very cryptically, so maybe one of you will help me out?

*stares with mouth hanging slightly open* Names, now, so that I may smack them.
I'm a Christian myself, but I would never DREAM of forcing someone to believe something they don't want to believe. If someone expresses an interest in God, Christianity, my beliefs, etcetera, I'll gladly tell them what I know, and invite them to services, but I'd never EVER force anything upon them.
Those people: pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah, angels my sweet tush, they sure aren't acting like any angels I'd want to associate myself with. And if they really ARE angels, I'd be more than happy to inform Father of what they're doing, so He can give them a proper chewing-out. *scowls at those trouble-makers and cracks knuckles*


*looks back and reads over the post* Okay, I think I've answered everyone...if I've happened to leave you out, my bad, please let me know so I can fix that mistake.

Hello Sachael.

Welcome to Castle Otherkin.

Finest and friendliest forum on the net.
Comfiest, friendliest Castle anywhere.

Darkness.

From that description they actually sound like Wraith who are formless shapeshifters. they are not Shadow kin, just like I am not, but look like shadowy smokey dark water

http://otherkin.30.forumer.com/index.php?showtopic=288# a piece on wraiths

http://otherkin.30.forumer.com/index.php?showtopic=333# a question about wraiths.

those are written and answered by one of the Wraith and may be what your friend is. There is a certain amount of "whats in a name"
but your description certainly sounds familiar.

Zygo