Oh I am sick of being called a freak!
I hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, hate it, HATE IT!

I know it's just a name, and I know it doesn't mean anything, and I don't mind BEING a freak, I just hate being CALLED one, by people trying to hurt me.

OK, just wanted to get it out. All better now.

Thanks for the space to do that in Lady C.

I can certainly understand that feeling Darkness, it will be familiar to many of us I'm sure.

I think when it is your choice, it is alright, but when it is used as an insult not only are they insulting you, they are using a word you like to do it with. Thus sullying both you and your word!. That stinks.

I know that you know it is better to ignore such people, and I know that you know they are not worth upsetting yourself over. AND I know that you know you are worth more than their insults, and I know that you know that they are wrong about how they assess your worth....... All these things I know because I have bothered to get to know you. If they had bothered to get to know you they would not only know all these things too, they would also realise what they are missing by not opening their eyes to the person right in front of them.
That just makes them foolish, and we already know that!

Take care little kitty. And don't let them hurt the person you are inside. None of them are worth it.

Much love.
Lady C.

Besides, they're just jealous. Have you ever noticed that some of the people that call other people names aren't very happy? It feels like they long for the freedom that others have, long for the confidence, so they strike out the only way they know how, by belittling other people's freedom of expression and stabbing their confidence.

what word makes me laugh when i get called it is b.tch. it used to bother me until i realized it was true! i am a strong headed, dominant, demanding female dog (partially anyway). It's like them going, you're such a Katie! haha, and since i realize that people are only calling me what i am, i just smile and laugh at them and go, yeah? That makes them mad, which makes me laugh more. haha. i like my circular logic, makes me feel better.

but us freaks have to stick together. too bad it was given such a bad rep. freak is suck a nice word. i mean it has a K in it! and an F. and if you fiddle with it you can spell Ekarf which doesn't mean anything as far as i know, but it's a fun word.

so Ekarf everyone.

Well, just to put in my two cents on the topic. I actually take being called a freak in what ever way it's given as a compliment. For some reason, what people think of me, doesn't bother me in the least, only because I know who I am, and only I can say how bad I am, and know it to be true. But anyways, what other people say is just opinion, not fact about what I am. Though when it comes to being called a freak, well, people are right on that one. But as I said, I take it as a compliment, because well, it just shows that I'm not like them, and they know it. I have more to say on this, but at the moment, I'm too impatient to type it all out, even with being able to type 102 wpm. (I'm so lazy lol)

~DS~

I am sure they are only sad, insecure individuals who wish they could be as different as you, but don't have the courage to try or the style and panache to acheive it.

Perhaps as you have said here that you consider yourself to be a freak, you should consider that, like Katie, they are after all only saying that you are so much like yourself. Not much of an insult really when you think of it that way. It could also be that they are jealous that they are not brave enough or free spirited enough to really, truly be themselves.
Free spirits are always ridiculed by the earth bound, in order to make being earth bound feel less restricting.
Like when you were a child and your parents said that you could not go somewhere you really wanted to go. By saying that you never really wanted to go in the first place, it makes not being able to go much more bearable.
I must admit that my approach to the subject of name calling is a lot like Darksilence's. I know exactly who I am, and they haven't got a clue, so their opinion of me is irrelevant to me. Knowing who you are, admitting to all your failings and recognising your strengths aswell as your weaknesses. Facing your true self without fear, looking at your face without the make up worn for the outside world and accepting all that you are will make you stronger, wiser and better equipped to handle this kind of thing.
If you can face their name calling armed with the truth of who you are they cannot hurt you, because they cannot say anything true that you do not already know, and if it is an untruth what is there to fear?
Change nothing except your knowledge of youself and your attitude to them.
They will not change, but that does not mean that you cannot grow, and leave them behind you.

Shade.

How old are these people? Are you at school or at work? I must say it all sounds very school yard-ish to me.
I haven't had to deal with anything like this since I left school. Work is very quiet and although I have no idea what they think of me, or say behind my back obviously, they don't actually say anything to my face. And I always think it's sort of like what I don't know can't hurt me. So I don't ask. LOL

There are people out there who simply avoid me, and I always let them be, if they don't want to know me, then that is perfectly alright with me. Some people seem to feel awkward around me, and often behave as though they can't wait to get away to a minimum safe distance. These people I have to confess I do tend to torture and torment for a little while, (pretending to find them and what they have to say fascinating), before taking pity on them and letting my attention drift so that they safely can make their escape.
But it hasn't descended to name calling and juvenile silliness since I was much younger.
I've got to say I dont miss those days at all.


I hope your trouble is soon over Darkness. Follow any of the good advice you've been given here and I'm sure it will be.

A huge big Ekarf to you Katie.

Thanks to everyone who replied here, you said tons of right things, and have made me feel a lot better.
I have the people who avoid me too DarkeDesire, I think I prefer that to anything else, at least it's honest.
I think part of it was because I hadn't even been back a week!!!! And they were already starting in on me, I should have just told them where to shove it, but as you can probably tell I was feeling a bit fragile.
I spent ages during the holidays just being myself and enjoying every minute of it, but that meant that I had gotten out of the habit of watching what I did and said in case it gave away something I would rather not. I think I went back still in the mindset of holiday living and slipped up in some major way by dropping my guard and being myself. Will I NEVER learn?
Ahh well perhaps this is my lesson after all. Time to stop running and hiding.

I can't express how much I appreciate all your help, support and advice. You're lovely people and I'm lucky to know you all.

Darkness.

I hate being called a freak too.

addmitedly (is that how you spell it?)I have been called one only a few times,i usually get called ruder or stupider names.

but I know what you maen Darkness I find the other names as annoying as you find freak.



natural wolf

I cant agree more with all of you I can't stand being called a freak but we will have to deal with it i try to but sometimes i cant and pin a few people to the wall and Natural Wolf if you dont mind me asking were did you make that?

It is a very cool signature piccie Natural Wolf.
Did you make it yourself?
I think perhaps Wolfie and I would like details of how you did that so we can do one of our own...

Lady C.

Yes it is very cool i think zygo has one like that to

I think all kin get called names at some point
I dont mind what i am i only mind the names people put on me. they hurt a lot. I'm called things like Lesbo (cos im friendly) freak (cos im different). I got called zombie once but im not sure what that was about...
Like i said i dont mind being all these things (cos there's nothing wrong with gay people) but i dont like being CALLED the names.
I was once told that they only call me names because they are afraid of me and what I am and because they are slightly paranoid. well I hope they find the peace of mind at some point to stop calling me names.

Shadowed Belief

You are a credit to yourself Shadowed Belief.

You hate the names, not the people who call you those names. And your wish for them is that they should find the peace of mind that makes it unnecessary for them to call you names in order to feel good about themselves.

Your attitude is mature and responsible. You should be proud of yourself and your outlook on the world (especially the bit peopled by idiots. lol). If you can keep your pureness of spirit you will go far.

Good luck and safe journey.

Wraith.