This should be an easy question to answer, but it's not.
I would love to say 'I always felt different' or something simple and straightforward like that, but for me it was more than that.
I was always aware of 'others' around me. No-one else could see them or hear them, and they had no clue who I was talking to when I would suddenly start a conversation with a 'someone' who just wasn't there.
An imaginary friend would have been easy to explain, except that they weren't from my imagination, and some of them were real.
The first anything I remember this happening with was the spider who lived in my room. He was huge, and he understood every word I said. The next thing to arrive was a huge brown Owl. She was not 'real', my mum couldn't have seen her, but she wasn't imaginary either. She didn't just listen to me, she talked to me aswell. She told me of the lives she'd had before, and bits about the lives she knew she had to come. (This was my first intro to the idea of re-incarnation.)
I know now that she was a totem animal, but at the time I called her 'my friend'. She was followed by a red Fox and a Snow Leopard who arrived together.
Over the years there were others who came and went. Teaching me and helping me while they were here, and then moving on. But these three have stayed with me all these years.
I didn't know I could ask them to show me what I was Zygo. Why didn't I think of that?
If the spider came first would he be my first totem animal? Or does that not work because he was real? If so then it would have been the Owl. Does that mean that's what I am, or that's who would be able to guide me to what I am?
Zygo help!!

Sorry.