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Chloe_Charlisle- 09-11-2008
Hi,

I just wanted to ask the otherkin out there, how did you figure out you were different from non-kin? And how did you find out what otherkin you are?

I'm just looking for ideas that could help me determine if I am even an otherkin and if i am, then what. I know it's something that ony I can figure out, but I don't even know where to start so I just would like to know how you all did it. I think that makes sense. >.< otherkin/kitty2.gif

UnaRosaPorTuMuerte- 09-11-2008
I have never felt like I fit in. Just walked a bit slower or a bit to the left of everyone else.
I read on this forum that you should look inside for answers, and I read the posts on meditation to help me do that.
I can't name what I saw when I did my meditations, that's why I've posted asking for ideas on what I saw might be. I'm not asking people to tell me what I am, because I've seen it, just to give me some names for what I've seen so i can do more searching using the names as a place to start my next step.

I'm hoping that post will help me get my answers.
I hope my post here helps you to yours too. smile.gif

Rosa.

Katie- 09-12-2008
I always knew, though i didn't know how to say it. I just saw things differently, notice the things that everyone seemed to be blind to, and i saw shadow beasties, so i was either nutters or something else, and psychic didn't really fit...

i'm a w.i.p. haven't pinned what i am.

zygopterix- 09-12-2008
I was told (in my teens) that generally you are the same kind of being as your first guardian so connecting with them and either asking them what they are or viewing them can be a key way of finding out what you are.
I got the order wrong and thought I was a wolf for a while but when I did some more questioning, discovered that what appeared to me as an Eagle really was the first of my guardians so I did some more meditation and found blue skin! odd coloured feathers and finally a burning aura along with various other anomolies (on me) that finally told me I am a phoenix. The blue skin originally made me think I was a dragon and I am still not sure where it comes from but now having allowed my Kin-ness to fully affect my essence I found that I have no solid form, being essentially a large flying flame.

When I went back to the Eagle and said to him
"how come your an Eagle then"
He said
"I'm not but you never asked"
Which brings me to my next point which is to ask your gaurdians to show you what they really are and not what you are comfortable seeing them as.
My Phoenix guardian spent many years looking like an eagle because that was a form I was able to relate to more easily than his true form.

So now my first pointer for people is to try and find out more about your guardians and move forward from there.

By accessing my memories since then I have been able to find various lifetimes spent in a wolfs body, a terratorn body , an eagle once and many lives spent as I am now in a human body.
I am however a Phoenix so can only really take my true form in the Astral or in the dreamtime between physical lives.

I hope this helps you in your search.

Zygo

Cobweb- 09-12-2008
This should be an easy question to answer, but it's not.
I would love to say 'I always felt different' or something simple and straightforward like that, but for me it was more than that.
I was always aware of 'others' around me. No-one else could see them or hear them, and they had no clue who I was talking to when I would suddenly start a conversation with a 'someone' who just wasn't there.
An imaginary friend would have been easy to explain, except that they weren't from my imagination, and some of them were real.
The first anything I remember this happening with was the spider who lived in my room. He was huge, and he understood every word I said. The next thing to arrive was a huge brown Owl. She was not 'real', my mum couldn't have seen her, but she wasn't imaginary either. She didn't just listen to me, she talked to me aswell. She told me of the lives she'd had before, and bits about the lives she knew she had to come. (This was my first intro to the idea of re-incarnation.)
I know now that she was a totem animal, but at the time I called her 'my friend'. She was followed by a red Fox and a Snow Leopard who arrived together.
Over the years there were others who came and went. Teaching me and helping me while they were here, and then moving on. But these three have stayed with me all these years.
I didn't know I could ask them to show me what I was Zygo. Why didn't I think of that? otherkin/headbut.gif
If the spider came first would he be my first totem animal? Or does that not work because he was real? If so then it would have been the Owl. Does that mean that's what I am, or that's who would be able to guide me to what I am?
Zygo help!! otherkin/lol.gif
Sorry. smile.gif

Captive Wild- 09-13-2008
I had it easy I think.
Mine came through what I believe is called soul walking or a spirit vision by native americans. I was ill and felt very detached from my body already when I had a strange experience where I walked along a seemingly never ending path which no matter how long I walked always curved slightly downwards and out of sight.
I kept walking and as I went I was joined by a grey Wolf. Then a little further along I was flanked by an Arctic wolf.I could feel ans sort of see several others behind me including what I now know was an Iberian Wolf.
I started to feel excited and decidedly nervous when a huge timber wolf appeared loping along in front of me. He slowed down and I literally walked into him, I stopped inside him when I reached his eyes.
I couldn't really have much doubt after that.

Wild otherkin/animal-smiley-038.gif

zygopterix- 09-13-2008
hello Cobweb
First of all are you sure your owl was first?
The Spider I am not sure of . He might have been a way for you to connect with a guardian, a totem or simply a very friendly fellow who knew how to talk to you. you may have guessed spiders are smarter than they are given credit for smile.gif

Now where to go from here.
You could ask your first gaurdian to show themselves to you.
Make a general announcement in your innnerspace that you wish to see and speak with your first gaurdian but only your first.
The others won't be offended but this should bring forward the one who, even though you see others, was first and might well have been working quietly in the background, unseen since you were a child.

If you don't get anywhere with that then of course ask your Owl, she will know much more about you than you realise and should have no problem telling you a great many things about yourself.

Zygo.



Kiari_the_wannabe- 09-15-2008
When I was little like five or six, everyone got a long with me.(that was because five and younger and most animals see nothing but the truth). but as i grew older everyone kinda stepped away like they could only feel something diferent about me instead of seeing the real me. Then i became friends with someone who was weird but really cool. Everyone treated him the same as me. We've been friends (close enough to be brother and sister) for 5 years now. hes gotten to where he could say anything to me. he told me he has no haertbeat and liked blood and could feel others emotions. then he told me he dreams of being a vampire. I told him i dream of being a cat with two tails so he wouldnt feel bad and left out. He said and I quote "I know. I know what you are. Thats why I can trust you. And I know you were afraid of me when we first met. Thats why I came to you first." I can't believe that he said that to me. I didn't think it was possible. thats how i know what i am. He said that in our second year of being friends. And I still can't get it out of my head.

Kiari otherkin/kitty2.gif

Chloe_Charlisle- 09-16-2008
Kiari that's such a sweet tale. Thanks for sharing it. ^^

Kes- 09-20-2008
So you have seen your inner self and someone else has seen it too Kiari?
That must be a good feeling to have someone else confirm what you know yourself to be?

I know what it's like to make friends with someone who is weird but really cool. They make the best friends ever. They are the ones who just accept you, no matter how long you are friends or how hard things get. I've always thought I was really lucky to find my weird friend. smile.gif

Shadowed Belief- 10-29-2008
I'm not sure how I figured out I was otherkin. Untill a while ago I wasn't even sure I was otherkin. I figured I might just be different. I have always been bullied so it kinda became normal. Sometimes I still wonder if I want so badly to not be human (sorry CTM) that my mind is making this up...

ComeToMe- 10-29-2008
You have no need to apologise to anyone for that Shadowed Belief. It is a thought that crosses the minds of all of us at one time or another.
I think that we all really need a small amount of doubt occasionally, this makes us re-search our essence and reaffirm our connection, and that means that we feel confident enough most of the time to stand up and say "I am what I am accept it or move along".

Even doubts can be good things if you do not let them beat you. Use them to help you understand yourself better and you come out on top every time. smile.gif

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